Thursday, June 2, 2011

Girl with Gumption

There are those times in life when one realizes that there are certain things about them that need to be improved. Certain strengths or skills that need a little refining. Bad habits that need to be broken. Teeth need whitening, tummy needs tightening, muscles need toning. Let's face it...we all could use a little work.

Lately, by way of sudden change and conversations with friends, I have come to realize that an area I need some improvement on is my level of gumption (which is currently nonexistent...or so I am told).What is gumption you say? If you consulted Webster you would learn that the word means: enterprise; initiative - plus a smattering of other terms that have no significance to this blog-post so I will withhold them for the time being. Some may also call it courage. In my everyday language, what it means is that I need to develop a spine. Plain and simple. 

I think if you had asked me prior to these enlightening conversations, I would have claimed to be a woman of great gumption! Someone who could speak her mind. Stand up for myself! And never would I allow myself to get pushed around, walked on, or be treated in any other way than what I deserve... But for those of you who know me, you're rolling your eyes and saying "nice try, Jacki." Truth is I can be that person in my car or in my apartment by myself, and definitely within my thought process, but never out loud. I would like to place most of the blame on the whole "Minnesota Nice" theory that I was raised in and clearly live out now even though I have been away from MN for nearly a year. Whatever the case may be, this is the current area of my life that needs some tweaking. Now just to figure out how to go about doing that. As for now, I take my inspiration from a scene from one of my favorite flicks The Holiday!


Sigh...
Someday, that day could be quite a long ways off if we are being serious, but someday I will be able to be that bold, be able to stand up for myself and be that courageous. Someday...you will know me as the girl with gumption! Better get to work!

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Start of Something New

The world is always in movement.
- V. S. Naipaul 

Something about being in Boone makes the above statement even more true. I feel like ever since I have arrived in Boone my life has always been stuck in this constant fluidity of change.  Learning a new job. Meeting new people. Adjusting to this hippie culture. Trying to figure what it exactly means to be a Mountaineer. And now, even though it's technically "summer" here at App State, I feel that I have been experiencing more changes now than ever before. While some of these changes are great and better than what I expected. Some take time to adjust to and I'm not always so thrilled about them when I first become aware of them. Some make me smile and maybe even blush a little! ;) Yet, others have brought me to tears and left me completely confused and frustrated. But no matter what, whether I am happy about the change or not, I strive to see the good. I have to look for the thing that keeps me going and the ways that I could possibly become a better person because of this new adventure in my life. No matter what I do to stop the curve balls from coming, they always seem to show up when I least expect. Might as well make the best out of it and enjoy the ride!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Grad School: Year One

To Do List
Write 4 Reflection Papers
Finish Transition Report
Complete First Yr of Grad School
Laundry

Well folks, completing my first year of graduate school has been crossed off the To-Do list. I am now a 2nd year! And I have no idea where that first year went. It has been nothing short of a whirl wind year, but it has meet and exceeded so many expectations. I don't even know if there is a possible way to fully describe this first year of grad school to you. I feel that I could bombard you with adjectives such as amazing, wonderful, challenging, fantastic, exciting, thrilling, empowering, stressful, exhausting, exhilarating, refreshing, etc. But I'm not sure words such as those would do this year justice. 

I think I can look back on this first year as a success due to many contributing factors. But the most important one is family. Family had a HUGE part to play in this adventure. First off, my parents and siblings have been so supportive of this journey I am on. I can always count on them even though I am over 20 hours away from home. This year I was fortunate to have a staff that have blessed me in ways I am not deserving of and I am so thankful to call them my family. I love you guys!! I was also blessed by being adopted into the Carruth family here in Boone. Andrew just graduated from my program, and He and his AMAZING wife Leigh and their daughter welcomed me into their lives and home. I could not have made it through this year without them. On top of all that, I have my CSD family, my housing family, and the ASU family in general. I work alongside some incredible people. I have met and interacted with some of the most amazing students. Students who inspire me, challenge me, and support me and  I could only hope to be as cool as they are one day!

All of the experiences I have had throughout this past year, both good and bad, have been tremendous growth opportunities and I wouldn't trade them for the world. And the great part about it all, I still have another year left! I want to offer my congratulations to all the 2nd years who graduated this weekend! I am so proud of all of you! Thank you for being such great mentors and showing us the way!

Now it's time to bring in the new first years and show them what App is all about!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Across the Pond

Where we love is home, 
Home that our feet may leave but not our hearts.
Oliver Wendell Holmes

A couple weeks ago, 14 of my cohort members, my three professors and I traveled over to the UK to examine Universities and what they do for student support services. Going back over the pond was like going home. Something about that place allows me to breathe deeply and something that was lost within my soul was revived. We started out in Edinburgh, Scotland. Got to tour the city a lot and spend a lot of time outdoors. Some of my favorite memories from that city was discovering that we could climb to the top of the Scot Monument and got a great view of the city.

We also went on our first hike with Daisy and of course, in true American form, had a dance party when we reached the top. But it was a great view, and it was great to get some fresh air!

The first University we visited was University of Glasgow. Amazing school with beautiful architecture. I think I found what really draws me in to schools: architecture. Hook. Line. And sinker!

We then went to Aberdeen. Some of the ladies and I took a walk out to the North Sea. It's at times like that when you have to pinch yourself and verbally remind yourself that you are in Scotland. The University of Aberdeen was a great school. Didn't have the medieval architecture that was seen at Glasgow, but something about the community was so welcoming. Note that our time in Aberdeen was the only time it rained while we were abroad. 
From Aberdeen we traveled to the place I most hope to return: St. Andrews. I fell in love with the town, the school, the tradition and all the history. What I felt when I was at St. Andrew's was similar to what I felt when I came to ASU. Even though I had only been there for a short time, it immediately felt like home. The University had the closest thing to what resembles a Residence Life system here in the states. My hope is to go back to St. Andrew's for a couple months after graduating. Fingers crossed!

From there we traveled through the beautiful countryside of Scotland to Chester, England. That city has some AMAZING history and of course the day we got to tour the city, I wasn't feeling well. We had a "Hen Party" for cohort member Emily the night prior and had a pretty great time. While visiting the school, our host exclaimed they had a very extensive history as they were established in 1849. I laughed. The schools we had visited previously started back in the 1400's. By just visiting three ancient schools, we became such snobs. "Extensive history? Yeah right! Talk to us when your school's history is nearly 600 years old."

After Chester we went to Brecon, Wales. When people ask me about my favorite part of the trip, the first thing I think of is Brecon. We got to go on an incredible hike with Daisy one day and I saw views that words can't even begin to describe. The beauty was something that put me in awe. The peaks we climbed were Pen Y Fan and Corn Du. We hiked while sheep grazed among us. Beautiful. Absolutely beautiful. After the hike, we all went to a local pub to watch a football game of Manchester United vs Manchester City. YAY MANCHESTER CITY!

From Brecon to Cardiff. I really liked Cardiff. For some reason it reminded me of Minneapolis, except Minneapolis doesn't have a castle in the middle of it. 

Story time. So we arrived in Cardiff on a Sunday morning. Our professors wanted to give us some time to see the city so we got there early. Did some shopping in the early afternoon, then walked back to our hotel to get checked in. We then decided to walk to the Castle which was just through the city center. The castle cost 11 pounds so we decided not to check it out. From there we walked to the National Museum after getting lost for a short bit. Didn't last in the museum very long because it was just the day before that we did the long hike in Brecon, so my feet were killing me and I was in flats. Well my professors Daisy and Cathy met up with us at the museum and since it was such a beautiful day out we decided to go to the Cathedral for evening song. So we started walking. At first it was so peaceful strolling through the parks and seeing people enjoy the weather. And we kept walking and passed a cricket stadium and through some random neighborhoods. Well 15 minutes into the walk, my feet are giving me the middle finger and I'm shuffling around like an old lady. I see the group, that is now way a head of me, stop by a building which looked like a cathedral. I finally make it there and see a sign. Homeless shelter. I laugh. Why? To keep from crying! We figure out that the cathedral is about another 15 minutes in the same direction. We push on. Walked through another park and got to see a cricket game. And then finally we see the cathedral in the distance. This one looked legit. Great architecture, grave yard, good history, the whole nine yards. Get to the front. It was closed. Go figure. To top it off, we got a bus ride back to the city center and we got there in 3 minutes. Hilarious!

We also visited the University of Cardiff which was a nice university. This school also was founded in the 1800's. From Cardiff we were off to LONDON! Hooray! There is something about that city that makes me feel so alive. And to me it's interesting that a small town like St. Andrew's and a huge city like London can feel so much like home. We got to do a lot of touring of the city. The weather was fantastic so our day in the city was a 16 hour day. I got to see Abbey Road, go on the London Eye, we went to the Tower of London and hung out by Peter Pan in Kensington Park. It was awesome!


The last school we went to was Cambridge University. That school was so intimidating! To think of how many brilliant people have attended the colleges there and the things they have accomplished and the rich history of the school just blows me away. We also got to punt the cam which was a great way to end the trip! Before you know it, I was getting packed up and headed back to the states.


My time abroad was so refreshing and it really confirmed that I need to be working in International Programs. Someday! I am so thankful that I was given this opportunity and that I have this experience a part of my graduate career. If you would like to hear more, don't hesitate to ask!

Cheers!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Alive and Well in the UK!

Just wanted to give a quick update from the UK! The trip is going so well!! We have been so blessed by great weather and the group is getting along very well. We have visited 3 universities. First stop was the University of Glasgow. Beautiful campus! Then it was on to the University of Aberdeen. Really enjoyed that school as they were so welcoming!! Next visit and favorite so far was going to the University of St. Andrew. Fell in love with the school and city! They have such great tradition there and it's something I would love to be a part of!! Maybe one day :). Tomorrow we are going to the University of Chester. Did you know Chester dates back to 79 A.D.?? Crazy!!

So in all really loving this trip! So glad this is a part of my graduate school experience. More updates to come upon return to the states. Cheers!!

Sunday, April 3, 2011

JORGEN

Since I will be out of the country when the BFF turns 26 (april.13), I wanted to give a little shout out to my best friend, Miss Jorgen Knutson! When I first met this girl she was wearing "Farm Girl" t-shirts and cargo pants. Now miss thang is fashionista extraordinaire! And she is quite possibly the sassiest girl I have ever met.
Diva.
Jorgen, know that I am so thankful for you and your friendship. You mean the world to me and have blessed me in so many ways. I am a better person because of you. Thank you for keeping my life so entertaining. Plus, it isn't bad having a best friend who owns nearly 50 pairs of shoes - that comes in handy a lot! :) I will be thinking of you when I'm gallivanting around England. Don't worry, I will try to bring you home something fabulous
So, here it is, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORGEN!! Love you lots!!

Love.Love.Love

UK BOUND

Just two more days until it is time to get on a plane and head across the pond! Don't really have much else to say about it. Writing this really just to rub it in that I am leaving the country...finally!! (It's been 5 years) Readers, you may or may not find it interesting that I will be in London just days before the Royal Wedding. You're jealous, I know. I'll do my best to document the occasion for your viewing pleasure upon my return to the states. With that, I best be on my way to getting my to-do list taken care of. I will touch base with you all in a couple weeks. Until then,
Cheers!